Hey, Cassie! So happy to have you here – a safe space to vent with those who will not judge you for it! What you’ve been through is incredible, and your feelings are valid. It’s not an easy life in general. Then add COVID to the mix for you and your baby, and that would send anyone over the edge. I’d love to hear what our POCF moms have to say. The first thing I thought of is talking to your fisherman next time he’s in town to figure out a new system. I know it can feel like there isn’t any wiggle room, but if you’re able to express your feelings and needs, I’m sure there’s a solution in there, even if it’s a tiny adjustment. Life is definitely different with a baby in tow, so this would make sense and isn’t coming out of nowhere, you know?
Also, what kind of support do you have at home right now? Do you have family, friends, or friendly neighbors you can lean on from time to time? Many of my moms-friends say they wish they had accepted help or asked for help more when their kids were younger. You don’t need to feel bad about it, either. As a woman without kids, I’d be happy to help my friend out for a few hours if she needs time to herself. Believe me; we want our female friends not to feel so alone! Sometimes, we don’t know how to help, but if there were a request, we’d understand where we can step in and show our love. Take a survey of those around you. Maybe there are people you can rotate to reach out to once a week (or more). Look around at your sweet baby’s birthday this weekend and take inventory of the love surrounding you and ask someone if they can watch her for a few hours next week if that would be helpful for you. Go grab a coffee by yourself, or lay down and take a nap! You are loved. Sometimes people just need to know how to show it. Sending you all the support I can. I hope this is helpful. Please keep us posted! We are here for you!